DEPRESSED OR LAZY?

I've been going through a rough period.

I got off one antidepressant in order to gain some energy - and then lost almost everything in the process.

I'm getting my feet back under me - am seeing another psychiatrist - but the lost energy is simply not coming back yet.

But is that depression, or am I simply being lazy?

It's hot, and easy to feel this way (the heat takes everything away from you).

Or is it lack of any ambition on my part?

EMOTIONAL BLACK-HOLDS

I don't know much about black holes.

Actually, I don't know much about anything except chocolate consumption and training overly cuddling and spoilt lap-horses.

But I digress.

So I'm going to quote a National Geographic site: "Because they are so small, distant, and dark, black holes cannot be directly observed. Yet scientists have confirmed their long-held suspicions that they exist. This is typically done by measuring mass in a region of the sky and looking for areas of large, dark mass."

But then this site says: "Black holes may not be totally black.  Infalling material can get hot enough to glow. (And) sometimes black holes are so bright they can outshine an entire galaxy.  Supermassive black holes can be so luminous we can see them from distances of billions of light years."

And then this is: "Now imagine an object with such an enormous concentration of mass in such a small radius that its escape velocity was greater than the velocity of light. Then, since nothing can go faster than light, nothing can escape the object's gravitational field. Even a beam of light would be pulled back by gravity and would be unable to escape. "

Hmm... like many things, we think we know what  we only think.

But back to the story (yeah, believe it or not, this blog isn't just about scientific theories - HA!).

This afternoon was spent allowing a familiar albeit frustrating and enormous emotional drainage ditch to empty my rapidly-depleted reserves of petite persistence.

I am exhausted.